Wednesday Oct. 26th

Normalcy was the key today.  Not much excitement or agony.  In French we didn't do too much just talking.  Calculus, we went over some homework.  In Physics we went over our tests.  I got an 80%.  Mr. Jones lets us take a retest if we think we can improve so I will probably take the retest. In econ, we had another lecture and a quiz.  I got a 23/25.  I didn't study too much and I still did well. It is probably my easiest class. My teacher for it is the assistant track coach. He usually works with sprinters but I know him fairly well. In track, he always yells “SPRINT!” no matter the event. Good dude.  At practice we did relays.  It was fun.  After practice we went home and rested for a bit until 6:00.  Then we went to the district gymnastics meet.   With some sports like cross country, the district and league meet are the same thing. Others are not. League championships are simply bragging rights because it is the district event where you qualify for state. The rest of the guys from the team were there.  We decided to show support for some of the other teams since we had a lot at districts.  We had fun talking and goofing around.  I really felt like I was a part of the group.  I can hardly wait for the assembly on Friday.  They are going to play Queen's rock anthem "We are the champions" while we hang the banner. It will be a glorious affair.  At the meet I talked to Andrea and Julie.  Julie was being nice.  Yesterday she seemed kind of bitchy or maybe she was just being cold to me. Anywho she was friendly to me tonight.  During my free period I read some more of Premonitions.  Mike said something today that really struck me.  He said "People go out with people for what their friend think" or something to that effect.  Along those lines I found out that Kristen has a boyfriend, a real asshole (and not just a she’s not going out with me asshole).  I guess I knew it all along but I didn't want to believe that she is a sellout.  It seems that more and more people are selling out what they really are for what they want others to see them as.  They are getting futher and further away from the "me inside of me".   Is it a conscious decision or does it just happen?  I hope it doesn't happen to me because I like myself.  I am secure with who I am and I guess with that attitude I will never have to worry about changing.  

 "Cindy, just hear me out and I will leave you alone... kay?  Oh you demolished me on New Year's Eve.  But see, I realize you did me a favor.  You brought me back to REALITY!  All I ever wanted to do was to get close to you and when I finally got there, it wasn't me anymore.  Cindy..oh Cindy.   I was just hoping we could sort this out.  You know; the real me and the real you.  That's all.
            -Ronald Miller (Patrick Dempsey) from Can't Buy Me Love.