Monday Nov. 28th.

#1 Song- "Baby, I love your way/ Freebird Medley" - Will to Power

Yesterday was largely forgettable and I was too lazy to write an entry. So sue me. I am a sow. Today well well. In Calculus, we watched a video. Physics was a reviewed a worksheet from last week, English was a discussion on Paradise Lost. We had a quiz and I aced it. After school Mike and I hit the weight room. We were lifting in preparation for track. A lot of guys on the track team swear by it so might as well give it a try. I want to break 2:00 in the 800m in the spring. Tomorrow will be a running day. Also (surprisingly) I got a letter from Patty. I wrote back. I napped before dinner and homework after. Finally wrapped up my English paper. Man, that is one of the best feelings- being done with a project. After 6th period today I spied KW and said "hi". Got one in return. Ha! I re-established it. Mike told me that she also said hi to me today. There is an outside chance she thought it was me. Today I was hanging out in the senior lounge. It's an area by the senior locker with some tables and a place to hang out away from the peering eyes of underclassmen. I was doing some homework and Shawn D sat down at my table and we had a chat. Always good to talk to her. I hope tomorrow is encouraging.

"The cinematography was beautiful, the acting was excellent, the sex was hot" - A Tony B. film review.

Saturday Nov. 26th

Today got off to a slow start. I went to work per usual but only lasted 4 hours. I was really slow and we were overstaffed. Generally they give the openers the option of ducking out early and we took it. Then Mike and I went Downtown for a little and just walked the 16th street mall. Not as much fun when it is cold out. We didn't spend too much time there before coming home. After a little nap, we hit Sound Warehouse. I think we came in right after a robbery. The staff seemed all shaken up and a few second later, the Police came in.  I bought 2 tapes. Tomorrow in the last day of this long weekend. Which means it is homework time. Let's have a good one!

"I served with Jack Kennedy, I knew Jack Kennedy. Jack Kennedy was a friend of mine, You, sir, are not Jack Kennedy"- Lloyd Benson during a VP presidential debate with Dan Quayle

Friday Nov. 25th

Well, it was good. Started out at 8:00 am. Had to go to work. On the way we had an accident of sorts. We were cruising down the road and a car suddenly stopped in front of use. Mike hit the brakes and we slid on some ice. Kind of amazing now that I think about it. We veered in the oncoming traffic lane, did a 180 around the idiot that stopped suddenly and wound up in a ditch on the side of the road. The dude just took off. We couldn't get out on our own so we had to call for a two. First we called Kim and told her we would be late. After 1 1/2 hours and $60 we were on our way. The car had no damage. Work went by fast because we were slammed. Everyone was out shopping and apparently hitting McD's. I also got paid today. $114.36. After work we did a little shopping of our own and he went to Southwest Plaza. Saw a lot of babes (a couple checking me out- I think, I hope) I was thinking today. Late at night before bed, my mind always starts with KW but other times, she might as well not exist. But I do like her. We saw Jeremy at the K-mart that is by the mall. Sometimes we just stop in to see if anything good is on clearance. He joined us as we cruised around, went back to Southwest Plaza, then cruised some more. Fun. I bought a tape- The Soul Sixties. Sam & Dave, Wilson Picket and the great Otis Redding,

Classics. I actually listen to 50's and 60's music more than I listen to the regular radio. I do get caught up with K.C Casem on American Top 40 at the end of the week. But the older stuff, really speaks to me. I wished for KW in a fountain. I hope it is answered. I'll do my part. I have faith, I have hope and I have courage.

"There comes a time for everybody, when true love will come your way. There comes a time for everybody, that's what they tell me that's what they say" - Buddy Holly

Thursday Nov. 24th

Turkey Day! (not turkey bird which is Jeremy's strangely named pet bird) Went okay. It feel a lot like a weekend. After going out last night, I slept late. Woke up at 1 pm. Then I just was lazy until the official meal.  We ate at home. The dinner was good as always especially the cherry pie. I loves me some cherry pie (I don't go in for that pumpkin crap). In addition to the family, we had my Grandma Eva (My grandpa died last year), my great uncle and aunt from Arkansas and my uncle Randy. My grandma had Randy when she was a bit older so he is way younger than my mom. He has kind of looked out for us after my dad split in a big brother sort of way. He took Mike and I to see Star Wars for the for the first time, so I am in his debt. He even has a boat and takes us all water skiing a few times a year. He's is kind of nerdy but a good fellow. He is also one of the few people I've known that going to the Army didn't change him. He was pretty much the same before and after. Always kind of admired him for that. If I go the ROTC scholarship route, I hope to be the same.  Tomorrow is payday! Money, money, money all for me to spend.


"I have two words to say to you 'Shut the fuck up' "- Bobby Deniro in Midnight Run.

Wednesday Nov. 23rd

School was mostly a blur. Felt like a Friday and with the holiday tomorrow, it kind of is.  When I saw K.W. today I got that “kick in the gut” feeling followed by some heart pounding.  Uh-oh. The ‘L” word. I am no longer depressed by the situation.  In fact, I am strangely confident although nothing has changed. Yesterday, she caught me staring at her. She didn’t seem creeped out some maybe she is getting the message that something is up.  Tonight  Mike, Jeremy and I hit up the dollar movies to see Midnight Run.

Which was a lot funnier that I thought it was going to be. We go to the movies a lot. They basically have movies that have been out for a few months already for a buck. The theatre isn’t the greatest but oh well.  We seem to go there with Jeremy more than our other friends. It’s right by my work and it pulls kids in from everywhere. We are always on the prowl for chicks. Sometimes we follow them around for fun- a car chase. Every once in a while they stop and we talk. Seldom do we get phone numbers, at least real ones. If we aren’t in a chasing mood and ,if my sister is working, we hit McDonald’s for a late night snack. Kim always gives us a look but still gives us stuff. What a nice sis.   Jeremy was acting weird tonight and whining about not having “someone to hold”. Hey I don’t have anyone but I don’t go bitching to people- what’s that going to do? He also said he’s thought of suicide. Not sure how serious he was but it was eerie. I hope someday he finds a girl who appreciated his integrity. He is his own dude and doesn’t seem to care about what people think of him. He came to Bear Creek in our junior year from Phoenix. I dunno, maybe that is how you have to be when you move to a new school.  Good guy.





“There's more to life than being cool, athletic, and popular”- The wonder years.

Tues. Nov. 22nd

What a mediocre day at best. I’ve had a string of them lately. Maybe I’m just in a funk. School was okay as usual. I have a fleeting sense of optimism about K.W. but I see a hope rebound in the future. It’s my thing. After school Mike, Shannon and I took our older sister Kim to work. Naturally we mooched some food for a little snack. Hey, ride’s not free. I checked the schedule and found out that I have to work tomorrow night. Then I came home and watched Fun House. Later on, Mike and I went to Pete’s house and talked about a lot of things. Just shootin-the-shit.  We also shot some hoop in the dark. It was fun. Pete is a good buddy. Today is the 25th anniversary of JFK’s assassination.

It makes me think of how sad America is today. The self-proclaimed rebels and hippes of the 60’s have turned all conservative chasing the dollar. The candidates for president are more pathetic than inspiring. People are too complacent and afraid of change. Which is one reason why a weenie like Bush was elected. One of the saddest examples is how Bush and Reagan recently made a list of the most admired men. Based on what I ask? Presidents no longer heroes to the young. Just kind of figureheads of ideologies. Young people only admire money. The torch that was supposed to be passed from Kennedy went out when he dide. We need youth and excitement and enthusiasm all the way from the school house to the white house. This, not a better economy, false promises, will make America better. The rest will just fall in line. Oh well, that is my philosophy.

“Ask not what your country can do for you, ask what you can do for your country” JFK, R.I.P.

Monday Nov. 21st

Today bordered on crappy. Calculus went okay. I’m in a groove there. Physics was just plain frustrating. English was a quiz which I failed. Econ, found out that I have a C for the semester so far but I can get that to an ‘A’ no problem. No letter from Patty. The initial enthusiasm for the whole K.W. thing has worn off but I am still hopeful. Need to re-establish some communication. We had our Cross Country team pictures. I imagine it will be pretty hard to find myself in the yearbook because of how big our team is. Probably really the only disadvantage.  After the group photo, they pulled all the All-County people out separately to take our pictures.  The picture winds up in the Hall of Fame.

I walked past those pictures everyday from years gone by and it’s surreal that mine will join them. While they were taking the picts some of my friends were walking by. I felt proud. I hope tomorrow is good or at least inspiring to me.

“If you can’t laugh at yourself, make fun of other people” - T-Shirt slogan.